on myself as an academic life-form

two insights on my little academic strugglings
1. the academic world and life-form is probably by now the only one where I will ever be able to almost function ... because nowhere else is the idea of a deadline rather perceived as a vague temporal guideline than a rule to be obeyed or even an inclusion/exclusion factor. (i.e. the answer I got this morning after announcing another due-paper's-late-by-at-least-3-weeks-arrival for mid-march: "That's fine. No Problem, Asha." Although, the same day also saw the arrival of a yet unopened e-mail with the subject 'Reminder' ... but then again, I had promised that paper for mid-January and am thoroughly ashamed of myself AGAIN
2. Just realized one reason why I am so totally stuck in this essay (for which the kind reminder is intended) ... because a lot of readings and discussions over the last weeks also lead to a total re-evaluation of my phd-project and the theory I could base it on - all of which is only in the very beginning stages of being researched by me (i.e. most things I just heard about but have not yet read myself) - thus the paper I gave at that conference in July is really no longer what I want to submit ... but in rewriting and restructuring I catch myself in trying to get my whole (yet undeveloped) argument into 15 pages and still analyse 2 books of short stories and try to make sense at least to myself. But, realization is not always the first step to solve a problem .... because what I want to say about these short stories is exactly based on these changed premises of my PhD project ...
and finally the usual update on procrastination activities: as I am back on facebook, my procrastinating life (and as I am still new to my new playtool) has become almost hectic with commenting, checking, wall-writing, ... thus too little blogging recently but hope that gets better again, because facebook really is to public to put myself out there!